Tomorrow's holiday convergence
So tomorrow is Mother's Day. It's also my birthday. 30 is looking smaller and smaller in my rear-view mirror and 40 is comin' at me fast. As I celebrate my relationship with the three most spectacular children ever, I'm keenly aware of the age gap between us. Infertility robbed me of the opportunity to be a young mom. My mom was a young mom. Her mom was a young mom and was, therefore, a young grandmother. There's a different dynamic when the parent/child age gap is so large. For one thing, I feel like I'm falling apart physically and just can't keep up with them most days. Yeah sure...that's an exaggeration, but let's just look at facts. I had to use a walker for weeks after their delivery because I had ligaments that separated and bones that shifted to the point of not being able to bear weight for some time. I had to do physical therapy to learn to walk again after being on hospital bed-rest for 2 months. Then I messed up my back when they were a few months old and had to move the entire gang in with my parents (we didn't even live in the same state at the time, so it was a huge ordeal) until I could walk again. Last summer was spent off my feet again because I dislocated both kneecaps trying to get back in shape (apparently...running was a bad idea for me.) I just found out I'm having carpal tunnel surgery on both hands this summer. I'm old. Most of my friends have kids in late elementary or middle school. I'm chasing around 3 toddlers. It's kinda' funny. And yet, it's kinda' not. I'm old. My birthday has never been a downer before, so this is new to me. Maybe it's just because it's falling on Mother's Day this year. Mother's Day will always be a mixed bag for me. I know I'm blessed. A bit blue but AMAZINGLY blessed.
On the upside, though, my hubby and the kids got me exactly what I was hoping they'd get me! Remember my shameless online hints back at Valentine's Day? No? You don't remember? Look HERE to refresh your memory. I have my peapod squad necklace. And I simply adore it. It's a beautiful reminder of the profound difference Sweet, Snap and Split have made in my life. I'm a mommy. Some days that still feels like a foggy dream to me. I just didn't think it would happen. Now I've got the peapod squad around my wrinkly neck and in my aging heart. ;-)

















