by Monica on February 2, 2010
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This is the dance I do.
I need to get away. I need time for myself. I want to be with other grownups. I want to network.
So? I have chance to do these things. I’m excited. I’m nervous. I’m sad.
Because at the end of the day, I really don’t like being away from my family. Though they all drive me silly-willikers some days, their faces always eventually put a smile on mine. And my heart feels incomplete without them.
Even when my peapod squad were babies, I’d get overwhelmed and insist that Daddy needed to watch them so I could go out alone. Inevitably, though, I’d be homesick for them by the time my car was at the end of our street. Or I’d panic that they may need me.
I still do that. (sigh)
I’ve packed all their stuff in labeled bags. I’ve left notes and little goodies for them each day I’m gone. As I zipped up the last bag tonight, I felt that familiar tug. The tug that wants to hold me here. The tug that whispers, “This is where you belong.”
But I know I’ll have a great time in Nashville. I’m excited to see my friends. To learn more about blogging. To hone my writing craft. To make connections that can help me continue to grow this as a business. And I’ll be a better, more rested, hopefully more patient mommy when I return.
And the hugs I’ll get when I walk back in our front door will be AMAZING.
For that…I can’t wait.
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by Monica on February 1, 2010
Shhh. I’m going to whisper this. Listen carefully.
We are all well.
Can you even believe it? All three kids are well and almost finished with their antibiotics. I’m midway through my second round and have coughed significantly less today. My ruptured/blistered eardrum is far less painful (i.e. no longer requiring narcotics at bedtime). Hubby managed to avoid the plague altogether. It is quite simply amazing.
So I can head to Blissdom (squee!!!) with less worry. I’m still going to miss my fam, but I’m not going to be freaking out about spiking fevers, vomit and other such niceties. Whew!
OK, now if these kids would just go to sleep already! I’ve got a little more packing to do!
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by Monica on January 20, 2010
I wonder if I will always cry on the eve of your birthday?
There are just so many overwhelming emotions still really close to the surface, I suppose. It was the most terrifying experience of my life and it led to the purest of joys. That jarring juxtaposition continues to yank my heart to and fro.
I feel like each birthday pulls you all a tiny bit further from my womb. A tiny bit further away from my protection. And that terrifies me.
But oh, the pure joy of seeing you learn new things…to watch you blossom into these capable and compassionate little beings.
I love how inquisitive you are. I love how you process things. I love how you are just so naturally sensitive to the feelings of those around you. And as much as it pains me to feel you growing away from our little safety net, it excites me to see the persons of character you are becoming. I am so honored to be your mom.
Five. Years. Old. As you keep reminding me…you’re “big kids” now. But if it’s OK with you, I’m still gonna’ call you my babies. Because even though you look like this doing cool stuff now:
This is what you looked like when I first fell head-over-heels in love with you. And this precious image is forever etched into my heart.
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by Monica on January 20, 2010
I’ve been spending oodles of time searching for fun cupcake ideas (my peapod squad will be FIVE tomorrow!) and have found some adorable ones! Because you know how much I heart you, I’m sharing some of my faves!
from Martha Stewart
from BHG
from BHG
from Martha Stewart
So many cute ideas! Now I just have to make up my mind. Oh, and go buy supplies and find the time to make them. And most of all…pray all three of my sweet ones are well enough for pre-k tomorrow. They are going to cry buckets if they can’t be there for the birthday celebration!
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